LOST

Feeling a bit lost today , not quite sure why.
Hormones perhaps...lol
All I know is everything is upsetting me and I am feeling alone in this world.
I dislike when I get this way because I know I have so much in my life I am grateful for but these days still come from time to time and I need to find away to let it go.
Not sure what set it off this time but when I get like this I miss my friends that have crossed over as well as my father but for some reason I miss my children being children , as well.
Sitting with Mike last evening he made a comment that he too misses his children and wishes they still lived at home because he works so close to home now and has good hours vs. when the kids were younger he worked 60 to 80 hours a week and was never home.
Its funny as I write this the song "Cats in the cradle" comes to mind...lol
We all get so busy with our life's and worrying how to make ends meet that we forget to reach out to those we love I guess Mike and I are feeling we could have done so much more as a family with our kids but we were so focused on making ends meet.
Now our kids are faced with that task in their life's and we can only hope we taught them the skills to survive because in this day and age making ends meet is more than a chore its down right impossible at times.

New Life ;)

Today I saw my first grandchild for the first time.
AmyRose had an ultrasound done this morning to determen the due date of hers and Matts baby.
Guess she is not as far along as she thought Sept. 1st the little one is due...its going to be a long summer but worth the wait.
I have plenty of time to figure out just what to buy the little one.
I already started crocheting a blanket not even a week after she told us.
AmyRose walked in and saw it and told me it was just the yarn she had picked out more or less so I guess I did good.
I find myself heading to the baby department every time I go shopping but I convince myself not to buy anything yet because we still not sure of the gender but soon enough I hope.

So many thoughts racing through my head wondering what the little one will be like what color eyes , will the hair be blond like AmyRose as a baby or dark like Matts , either way I know I am going to love being a Grammy.